I am sitting on my bed, listening to the silence of the house writing my blog post. I have been at work today, putting a brave face on things. My kids have been little darlings today but they probably have been sensing that I needed a day off from their squabbles and silly fights. I am still feeling lonely – no one to chat to at the moment, getting used to the silence again.
I have decided to look around for local groups that I may think about joining, not that I will have babysitters but at least knowing there is places out there of interest will make me feel better. I am looking forward to Friday, it has been a long time since I had a night out and it could not have come at a better time. I will be doing something a bit different so I am quite excited about getting out, having a chat, meeting new people.
I think I would have totally cracked up had it not been for my addiction to walking the dog. I have felt myself flagging on days where I don’t get out on a huge walk. It is as if I am drained of energy if I am not able to exorcise my demons during a long, furious walk. Tomorrow will be a good day as I have free time in the morning. I have parent evenings to go to at night so it will be hard for me to get some writing time tomorrow but I will try and fit it in somewhere.
I am charging up my ipod so I can sing away my frustration as I walk, I am feeling okay today. Life has not ended. I am still here – still loving my kids, walking my dog, writing my blog, writing poems and planning my next step.