I am taking a day. I have commandeered today for myself. I have sat for a lot of the morning in my room staring at space. I got up and did mom stuff, fed the kids, went food shopping but I was trying hard not to feel anything. Part of my life has just crumpled into little bits and I am trying to make sense of it all and I needed to shut out everything.
I am trying to hold onto little pleasures in life to keep my self centred and sane but I want to curl up in a ball for a couple of days but as a single parent I cant allow myself to do that. I am hoping normal service will resume tomorrow but I cant promise anything.
At least the pain is conducive to writing poetry so I’m going to get to work.