Saturday was spent with my three youngest kids. I am trying to squeeze every minute I can – to spend every second I can with them before they go back to school. Tonight we gutted bedrooms and made their personal spaces much more comfortable. Not the most glamorous way to spend an evening I know but it was good to see them look after their own things. Just more of the life skills I have to teach them as a parent.
My house is now tidy, my kids are happy and we have time to sit and watch movies or just have conversations. My daughter and I sat looking at tattoos online (I know you may not think this is the best use of time) because she and I love art and we discussed the artistry and beauty that existed in a few of the tattoos. Tomorrow will be a more hectic day as I am expecting visitors for dinner and am also hoping to get some of my sons bedroom decorated. Finally getting around to the last few jobs to complete the house.
I am now sitting in the dark about to watch a movie with my eldest son now that my two littles are in bed. I have enough time to write my blog and chill a little. My thoughts today have been a little preoccupied with mentally checking over and over again whether I have gotten everything my kids need for their return to school. I have also been trying to carve out a writing regime for myself but I keep thinking up other jobs that need doing. I seem to be running around in circles doing anything but my writing. It is as if I need permission to take the time for myself. Maybe when the kids are back at school I wont feel guilty for switching off and devoting my attentions to writing.
One good development in my thinking however is that I now think about WHEN I start my writing not IF. It has taken me years to do this but I finally decided that I can do it and have shoved all the doubt to the back of my head. I just need some free time (when the kids are at school and I am not at work).