Today I got up with a black cloud over my head. I have been seeing no silver lining to anything at the moment. I have been carrying round the weight of the world on my shoulders. I seemed to have lost any lust for life really. Over the course of today though something changed. I was lying on my bed reading and listening to very loud music and something just clicked into place in my head.
I thought what the hell am I doing? I think the music I was listening to just hit a nerve. I got up and started tidying my immediate surroundings and thought why am I letting the situation get the better of me. I have five kids who mean the world to me. I have two grandchildren that I totally adore. I am interested in everything, I have a thirst for knowledge and need to get my head back into some research or learning. I know what I am meant to do now. I need to just get on with it and stop procrastinating.
I have spent years putting off what I really want to do. Today I will actually start doing that. I am going to get all my notepads, all my writing gear and get on it. I have a couple more days off work – I have time to turn this situation around. Time to write my way out of my depression and time to get mentally well again. I just want to say thank you to those people who have called, written to me, sent me music and just been there for me in my emotional time of need.
I am forever thankful for your support, your help and your love.