Some days are harder than others to cope with. I feel like I have to be strong for everyone else on a daily basis. If it is not my kids, it is someone else. I regularly feed others, listen to their problems, help them get over hardships in their lives. I feel like I am always doling out advice to folk. Today I feel like I have had enough of this though. I am a person with thoughts and feelings. I am not a thinking machine that can magically fix everyone. I cant keep listening to folk whine about their relationships that don’t work, their wee marriage problems or their work dilemmas.
I usually have the patience of a saint, I usually enjoy helping people or taking time out of my day to try and help. Today though is the last straw for me. I have a collection of so-called friends who drain me emotionally every time I talk to them. People who you ask how they are doing and they spend the next hour moaning about their life and really all their problems are either a figment of their imagination or a problem of their own making. Not once do they ever stop to ask so how I am? I am really fed up of self obsessed folk that you know when you bump into them that the conversation is going to revolve around them for a good hour. Get a grip – other folk apart from you do actually exist. Friendship is meant to be a two-way thing.
I am sorry if this surprises you to hear me so angry and not as sympathetic as I usually am. I am fed up of people who drain me, people who just want to blab on about their boring mundane life as if I should be honoured just to have them stop and tell me about it. Today I am just tired. I need to recharge somewhere immediately. I just can’t take this one sided relationship any more. If you cant handle me not being there then you need to look at yourself. If you were really a friend you would ask about my life occasionally.
As I am a single parent with no-one but my kids for company on a daily basis I am venting here so I don’t hold on to this resentment. They don’t need an angry mum. I want to scream or shout at the top of my lungs. Instead I will just get on with things and have a great time tonight on my night out with friends from the depths of hell. Roll on six o’clock.